Natalie and Casey's Life

12:02pm: So guys im done with this LJ it was fun while it lasted...here is the new one...only some of you can read it and you kno who u are... Nat_luvs_steve

Natalie

Bye Natalie_casey

9:04pm: Fun Weekend!
OMG I'm having such a great weekend!

Saturday night Steve's mommy being the angel that she is drove Katie, Maggie, Steve and my asses up to Lake Compounce for the haunted graveyard. YAY! It was soooooooo awesome! Katie and I were screaming every 30 seconds but it was really cool cuz Katie and I were all like holding hands and Steve and Maggie too...It was really funny! Thanks for going with me Katie! You ROCK! Boulder Dash is soooooo much more fun at night! Coaster Pics are so much fun!

Today was really interesting...I was home hanging out when Steve called me to tell me that Chris was hauling our asses to New Milford to see Jamie. So I told my parents that I was going to help with the prayer walk and went with Chris and Steve. Anyway...Jamie didn't show so i was a little pissed off that we had all just wasted time but whatever. Then Steve came to my house cuz we were gonna go to church. Anyway he was upset about it too. Don't worry Steve I love u much! So then we went to church and Kristen was there which was cool cuz i never get to see her. Then it was Road Rally time! YAY! Steve and I were so on the same team and we totally got back first so maybe we didn't have the points but we still won in my book... :-) I miss Katie too...now we can't have a sleepover. But next weekend im sure we will...

YAY! ~Natalie

3:40pm: CHRIS
YEAH YOU ARE HER SLAVE c-dAWG --- I PROMISE ITS ALL WOTH IT

5:06pm: hey guys and gals
cute pic of nat, steve and chris. why were you guys painted in the first place? hehe. Steve all I can say is, I hope this one treats you right. You deserve the best. Chris- Killing you got me an A+ HAHA!!! sO ARE WE DOIN A YEARBOOK PAGE TOGETHER GUYS? UPDATE ME ON THAT SOON. I've been so busy lately but It's for the best. I didn't think so at first but now I understand that time alone gives me a little bit of inner peace, time to think. Sounds stupid I know but I need it. I'm so ready for college. I cant wait to get out of this tiny little town. Nat and Katie we gotta have a girls night out I have so much to tell you (wink, wink) hehe giggles!! Chris I think your probably the only person out of our little group that I've seen lately. You and Lizzy. All of this is random I know! I REALLY WANNA GO DANCING. TEAR TEAR-last homecomeing-last moon dance-last prom. I love you guys SOOOOOO freakin much. I'll never forget our good times. Work has been very interesting lately. Ya know, with people undressing manicans and men going into womans dressing rooms constantly. It happens more often than you think hehe. Gosh I've been so busy ...work, docent training, college searching,H.W., making my homeoming dress,yearbook and co-pres of RAK. You know whats sad though I still dont have a life.

Much love to my babies,
Casey

8:20am: School is cool.Nat is on drugs.. hehehe.. isnt this great. wahoo.. wow.. yipee.. yeehaw.. i have no more fun exclimations, physics smells like poop in the toilet. i gg.. party on

9:43am: I miss you
Hey guys,
I feel like it's been forever since we really hung out. I have been so busy with work, school and yearbook that I have been left with absolutly no time for friends. It sucks. Well, it's second period and the bell is gonna ring soon. I hope all is well. I promise I'll find some time for you guys.
much love,
Casey

4:38pm: School!
First Day of School...

I forgot how much I hate school...Physics is just horrible. My teacher is a psyco asshole on top of the fact that i really don't like physics anyway. Then Politics is fine but since i really don't like politics in general that kinda sucked...Then lunch was fun as always...English was just dandy thank god Casey is in my class...My teacher teaches like she is in a kindergarten classroom tho. Genetics was okay...not a big deal. AP German is insane i can't believe i am taking that... Pre-Calc with Clark is okay too Sarah and Von Ving are in my class so its good.

So yea i hate school...So glad i get to see Steve and Katie throughout the day or it would suck...

Natalie

1:34am: steve's happiness
I'm so happy for Steve. I think that maybe he has found his happiness and lost his depression.

2:28am: tired
I am so exhausted. Lack of sleep is not fun especially after hiking 4 miles. I REALLY REALLY need some sleeping pills. Maybe if I actually have strenghth to drive a car tommorow i'll pick some up. I hate being tired.whatever.

love y'all,
Casey

12:08am: an explanation of my entry
in the 2 a.m. entry I wrote something along the lines of I hate money loving assholes that take advantage of me....I totally did not mean I hate people who borrow money from me! what I was refering to was something on a personal level..I hoped I wouldn't have to explain who I ment by this but I guess I have to now...the doctors that my parents have sent me to in the past. I definitly dont want to go into it. All I needed you to know is when I wrote that it had absolutly nothing to do with my friends. I probably wrote other things in there that confused people but the entry wasnt ment to explain my life story it was for me to get everything that has been bottled up inside of me out in writing and I'm so glad I did. well Ig2g.
love always,
Casey

2:02pm: casey
C Cheerful
A Altruistic
S Silky
E Exciting
Y Yummy

N Normal
A Ambitious
T Technological
A Amorous
L Loud
I Important
E Entertaining

2:49am: My thoughts at 2A.M. (WHY SHOULD I LIVE A LIE?)
It is now 2:50 a.m. and I still can't fall into a peaceful sleep. Nights are the worst for me. Thats because time becomes more available to me, when no one is around, to think about the previous day and the days ahead of me that I am forced to face. It scares me sometimes,ya know? When a person has too much timeto think about mistakes and regrets that are repeated every day,they may not want to be the same person or any person the next day. I am thinking right now about the person I really am and the person that everyone else, my own friends, think I am. I am a completely different person when nooneis around. Sarah, my best friend and sister at heart is the only peron who knows and understands the real me. I wish I could share the real me with everyone else but when I'm around you guys I am just a stupid, annoying,immature, crazy, fake, loud, insensitive person. I'm very ashamed of that but it's how i've learned to act around my friends since the first day I stepped onto the playground at Farmingville Elementary school. I hate the fact that you believe I am who you think I am. I have cryed myself to sleep almost every night since I moved here wishing and hopeing that I can be happy and show everyone who I really am. When I think "I hate myself" what I really mean is I hate the person that wakes up every morning and puts on an act because it is what people expect of her. The girl I really am is quiet, sensitive,stubbern, ready to be happy with herself but never really gets to that point, unsure about life, scared of losing any part of herself that is true and real, angry at herself for ever letting anyone take away her rights as a person and being taken advantage of by money loving ass holes. There is so much more to me than anyone in the town of Ridgefield has seen that includes my family. I have a pretty bad headache right now, it's 3:26 A.M. I should try to get some sleep. I guess what I'm trying to say is please be patient with me if I start to change over the next year because I am sick of living a lie. It's important to me that you all know who I really am because I don't know how many more days I would want to wake up if I continue to act this way. I'm so glad that I got that out. I'v been holding tat in for a long long long time.
love always,
The real Casey

11:41pm: Well...Friday Katie slept over here. It was great we just watched "Wrong Turn" and did our "girl talk thing"... It was a great time.

Today Katie and I went to The Yankee Pedler Fair at Jesse Lee because Chris's band was playing there. Unfortunately, we missed it not to mention the fact that I was the third wheel when i was kinda planning on maybe being able to pick up Steve on the way there but whatever. We ended up walking around town and talking about stuff. We went to the playgound at VP too. That was much fun!

Then tonight Katie, Steph, Stel, and I all went to Leslie's recital which was fun! We hung out in our cars in the parking lot, and danced on the tables in the cafeteria! It was great! Leslie is an awesome Irish stepper! GREAT JOB LES!

Thanks for all the rides Katie!

Natalie

10:59am: RECITAL!
I love recitals soooooooo much! They are just so much fun!

When I got to the high school it was just before 12 pm for the first show. I was walking to find my room and Linda asked me to give Kat her flowers in the first show. Of course I was so excited because Kat is the best ever! I was really nervous knowing that lots of people were gonna be there and I was in a little skimpy modern dress. Right before the hip hop dance I got so nervous I really don't know why because that never happens to me. Once I got on stage I had a great time! It is the best place to be.

I went back to the black box theater to change into my little dress. Then people came in telling us that we were lining up again! Of course i still wasn't dressed. We ran out while I was still putting on those ugly uncomfortable modern sandals. I was so excited. We waited in the wings and then we headed on stage. Modern went fairly well except for that goddamn stupid mistake I made! When we were done I heard Steve yelling my name! LOL Thanks Steve! Then we went back to change so we could sneak into the auditorium and watch the rest of the show. Katie, Fran and I met Steve and went to watch the show. Thanks to Steve and Sarah for coming!

The second show went much better dance wise. Steph and Leslie came to see us which was awesome! I love you guys! Thanks for the flowers and the cd! You rock!

Thanks to everyone else to came and supported us!

Natalie

4:22pm: Sooooooo...

On Tuesday I had my rehearsals for dance...YAY! They went pretty good I guess. It seemed like once I got on stage everything went wrong. I am happy to say that I FINALLY got fucking modern sandals...

An update on RHS...what a fun time with the fucking smoke bomb that was set off in the second floor C wing staircase. What was better was that I got to run through all the smoke going to Chem about 5 min late... I get into chem and about 2 minutes later the smoke alarm goes off...YAY! We spent an hour outside which was fun because I was with friends...

Today is the Awards thingy...YAY! Actually I don't really care but whatever!

Tomorrow is dress rehearsal! I am really excited but at the same time i am definitely not looking forward to the shit from Jess. The recital is in 2 days! I am so nervous but really really excited! Everyone COME! The shows are at 1 pm and 7 pm at our favorite place RHS!

Love,
Natalie

6:52pm: I haven't updated in a week so i figured that it was time...

Friday I went to the barn to hang out with Meredith and Camilo. That was much fun! Then Saturday I had a car wash which was just wunderbar especially because I was trying to sort out the "problem" between Katie and Chris 2 of my best friends. Everything did get solved which was good. Then we went bowling at Brookfield Lanes which was the best except for that Nathan kid...(What was with him?) Then Katie came to my house and we watched the Texas Chainsaw Massacre and did our dances! YAY! Recital 5-15-04! I am so excited! Then today Mother's Day we went to trumbull to go shopping. That was my exciting weekend...

Natalie

6:01pm: Well...I was on a field trip[ yestarday which was much fun! We went to New Haven Harbor and on a boat trip for Oceanography. It was fun b/c we got to use a trawl net. We only caught three spider crabs, a massive horseshoe crab, a sea star, and a dead flounder. It was really cold too. The worst was I took Dramamine for motion sickness and I got really drowsy and fell asleep on the way there, there, and on the way back. When I got home finally I just did my math hw and passed out on the couch. Then I woke 10 min before dance. It was the last hip hop class and it was good but really tiring and frustrating trying to make the dance look good. Then I came home and finished my hw and went to bed only to go to school at 9 am. FUN TIMES!

Natalie

7:12pm: Seeing that I haven't posted since the disaster called Prom I figured I should start again!

So basically this week wasn't too bad. On Monday Steve and I did the election poster deal which was atually a lot of fun. :) We made some pretty awesome posters although nothing beats the swimsuit models!

Tuesday we hung up the posters and I went to the Beach. The beach was great but by the time we got back to RHS the buses had left leaving me at the school b/c my parents were working. Luckily, Steve had Acapella and so I hitched a ride with Steve. (Thanks to Mrs. Shuldman.) At the same time I found out that people had vandalized Steve's campaign posters. I was pretty pissed seeing that we spent a lot of time on them. Of course naturally I felt bad for Steve.

Wednesday was the usual.

Thursday Steve called me to tell me that he found out who vandalized his posters and Mr. Katz kicked his ass! LOL So I was really happy until I got to dance and found out that this is Kat's last year teaching at RSPA! I was so upset and ended up crying by the time I got home. Of course she teached in Westport which is like 40 min away! I have a feeling that Katie, Karolin and I will be going there next year!

Friday I was kinda bored so I gave Steve a buzz and he came over to watch movies with me which was fun times! (I hope he thought so too). When he left reality hit me that I was freakin leaving to go to Hicksville (pennsylvania). I was so pissed.

So Sat came and off to Penn. for my Aunts surprise retirement party. Fun Stuff...lol But I did teach everyone the Cotton Eyed Joe! And we did do the Cha-Cha Slide!

Today was driving home and getting back in the car to go to gs which was dandy...then home to do all my hw. What was with the fucking German hw? I do not kno.

Natalie

4:23pm: Prom!
I know that everyone is probably wondering about prom...right?

Well here's how it went. I woke up and left the house at 11 to go to the florist first to get Steve's flower. Then to Joy of Movement for dance stuff for the recital which they had nothing i needed...go figure. Then off to get my hair done. It wasn't anything too special she just put it all up in curls and stuff. Then, I came back home and did my math hw and sat around for a couple hours. Then at about 5:30 I went to get my shoes for the dance. They weren't where I thought they were naturally! So my mom and I searched the house and they were nowhere to be found. I was freakin out seeing that I hadn't eaten, changed, done my makeup and I had no shoes while Steve and his parents were coming at 7! Mom and I hopped into the car and headed to Kohl's hoping that they would have something. I ended up getting flip flops and headed home. I got back by about 6:30 and shoved a slice of pizza down my throat and changed and did my makeup and was done at 6:45 (what a record!).

At 7 Steve came with his parents. He was cute in a tux. We did the whole how do we pin a flower deal and took lots of pictures. Then we headed to Casey's house for more pictures. YAY! I am pretty sure that Steve and I won't be taking any pictures for a while! Then off to the Dance. We got there and basically no one was there. We all got our pictures done and started to walk around and say hi to people. The decorations were kinda corny but fun. The DJ was pretty good at the beginning then it turned bad! But finally by the last hour when there were only about 20 people left the music was good again.

After the dance we went to Casey's house where we made fun of Casey for an hour! Yay how much fun! Finally Casey got pissed at Steve and decided to steal his cell and call Heather at 12:30am! Naturally, she called back and Casey decides to hand me the phone and naturally Heather HATES ME! Anyway so she was totally in histerics! Sorry Steve :( Anyway we played a couple games of pool and started watching Daredevil. However seeing that we were all extremely tired we all were basically half asleep!

Over all, It was a pretty good time and I am actually glad that I went and really happy that Steve decided to come with me cuz he was a fun date!

~Natalie

8:20pm: SURVEY!
Here is another one of those fun surveys that was stolen from Lewkie who stole it from someone else who stole it from someone else...

10 bands you've been listening to a lot lately:
1) Hanson (new Single)
2) Linkin Park- Hybrid Theory
3) Simple Plan
4) Sugarcult (new and old)
5) Something Corporate
6) New Found Glory
7) Blink 182
8) Seventh Time Down
9) Allister
10)Soon to be...The new Hanson CD- Underneath!!!!

09 things you look forward to:
1) End of the school year
2) Prom
3) New Hanson CD
4) Summer!
5) Chilling with friends
6) Driving
7) Dance Recital
8) The Barn (sometimes)
9) Lunch

08 things you like to wear:
1) Tank Tops
2) Black
3) Trench Coat
4) Studded Belt (lol Steve)
5) Bracelets (in case you couldn't tell)
6) Sweat pants
7) Prom dresses
8) Hats

07 things that annoy you:
1) Katie...LOL j/k (I LOVE U KATIE!)
2) SCHOOL
3) When people hate each other
4) When people are depressed (especially about stupid things)
5) Driving my sisters
6) My PARENTS!
7) Men (sometimes)

06 things you say most days:
1) Oh My God!
2) Are You Shitting Me?
3) Whoopty Fucking DOO!
4) What's shakin?
5) I LOVE U!
6) SHAGGIN WAGON!

05 things you do everyday:
1) Laugh (all the time)
2) Cry (MOST DAYS)
3) Speak
4) Dance
5) Listen to Music

04 people you want to spend more time with:
1) Steph
2) Katie
3) Leslie
4) Stel

03 movies you could watch over and over again:
1) X-men 2
2) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
3) Finding Nemo

02 of your favorite songs at the moment:
1) "Every Word I Say"- Hanson
2) "Penny and Me"- Hanson

01 person you could spend the rest of your life with:
1) Katie! Basically because I could trust her with my life. She is the one person who has always been there and liked me for who I am. I have also known her basically me whole life so we are like sisters!
I love u Katie!

Well...Today was a fun day...actually not really the weather was nice by half of my lunch table was sick/ depressed and I had 3 tests today.

Hope you all liked my survey! You can rip it off me and use it! LOL

Natalie

9:32am: Finally I add to the Journal!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Your Welcome Natalie!!!
Hey,
Sorry for ignoring my duty to the journal for over 2 months. Now it is time for me to add to it woo-hoo! Well, lets start with prom! I look like an orange beast (due to too much self tanner)! My date situation is ok for now...I guess. Natalie and I realized for the first time yesterday that we are actually getting excited about prom! A couple of weeks ago we were totally like "I'M NOT GOING"!!! I think that the nail, hair and shoe decisions are going to be the hardest. I just hope I don't look really horrible on prom night!!! I am so excited about my braces coming off! They come off on Thursday!!! YAY!!! I have waited since fifth grade to get them off and how convenient,they come off two days before my Jr. prom!!!! I'm really scared too...what if they don't look nice? whatever, i'm sure i'll be fine. It's 3rd period and the bell is going to ring very soon.

P.s. Happy now (Natalie)

bye ya'll,
Casey

11:47am: SURVEY...YAY!
Here is that survery that everyone did!...LOL

Jewelry worn daily: bracelets :), earrings
Pillow cover: Light Blue w/ Clouds
Coffee cup: Yup
Shoes: Converse All-Stars (red)
Favorite shirt: New Hanson one :)
Favorite pants: UFO's (not that I have any...yet)
CD in stereo right now: Penny and Me Single (Hanson...soon to be Underneath!)
Piercings: 4 in the ears
What you are wearing now: Dark Jeans, Gray Tank Top, Black sweatshirt
In my mouth: My toungue
In my head: Lots of Thoughts bout stuff
After this: Gettin my sis at dance
Talking to: no one...no one is on :(
Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming months: Hanson CD comes out on the 20th and of course PROM!
Something that you are deathly afraid of: being unloved good one steph)
Do you like candles: yup
Do you like incense: of course
Do you believe in love: sure
Do you believe in soul mates: def
Do you believe in love at first sight: thot's a tough one...not really...but i guess it could happen
Do you believe in forgiveness: of course
If you could have any animal for a pet: cat
What are 3 cities you wouldn't mind relocating to?: Fair Haven, Ma and Miami, Fl and Honolulu, Hawii! (totally not gonna happen...)
What are some of your favorite pig out foods?: ice cream, Nachos, Popcorn
What's something you wish you could understand better?: Men (good one steph again)

IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU:
01. Cried: actually no...not this time
02. Bought something: Jelly Beans...lol
03. Gotten sick: nope
04. Sang: naturally
05. Eaten: French Fries
06. Kissed anyone: nope didn't go to the barn so no...j/k but no
07. Felt stupid: Yes as always
08. Wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didnt?: nope
09. Met someone new: no...not in a while
10. Moved on: i guess a little but not much
11. Talked to an ex: um...don't have one to talk to...lol
12. Missed an ex: okay just answered this on above
13. Talked to someone you have a crush on: actually no it was more than 24 hrs ago
14. Had a serious talk: not yet but i am gonna soon
15. Missed someone: of course
16. Hugged someone: hm...yes John...yay!
17. Fought with your parents: duh!
18. Dreamed about someone you can't be with: most likely

SOCIAL LIFE:
01. Best girl friends: stel, steph, katie, Casey, Meredith, Leslie
02. Best guy friend: Steve!... and Chris!
03. Boyfriend/Girlfriend : um...no do i ever?
04. If yes, current dating partner:
05. Hobbies: Hangin with my peeps, Dancin, driving, talking, shopping...lol
06. Pager: nope
07. Are you center of attention or the wallflower: both i guess
08. What type automobile do you drive: MINI VAN!!!!! Nissan Quest! and love it every time...
09. What type automobile do you wish you drove: I don't really care what i drive actually
10. Would you rather be with friends or on a date:Def My girls!
11. Where is the best hangout: Steve's Basement, Steph's House, or the barn naturally
12. Do you have a job? nope...I'm workin on that
13. Do you attend church: yes
14. Do you like being around people: sure

WHO:
01. Have you known the longest: Katie...11 years!
02. Do you argue the most with: My dad
03. Do you always get along with everyone: I try
04. Is the most trustworthy: all of my chicks
05. Makes you laugh the most: Steve or Chris
06. Has been there through all the hard times: Katie, Steph, Stel
07. Has the coolest parent(s): Steph, Steve, Meredith
08. Has the coolest sibling(s): Katie...lol J/K
09. Is the most blunt: i don't really no
10. Is the smartest: Karolin maybe?

PERSONAL:
01. Who is your role model: I dunno
02. What is some of your pet peeves: i don't really have any
03. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with?: all the time
04. Have you ever cried over the opposite sex: always
05. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: Seems to always be someone that I am close to
06. Have you ever lied to your best friend(s): nope i doubt it :)
07. Ever wanted to get revenge on someone because they hurt you: no
08. Rather be dumper or dumped: dumper...lol
09. Rather have a relationship or a "hookup": relationship
10. Want someone you don't have right now: yep
11. Ever liked your best guy/girl friend: yeah...always...
12. Do you want to get married: definitely
13. Do you want kids: sure
14. Do you believe in psychics: no
15. Do you believe you know the person whom you will marry at this point in time: no
16. What is your favorite part of your physical appearance: boobs!...lol actually i don't really kno
17. What is your favorite part of your emotional being: i dunno...what kinda question is this?
18. Are you happy with you: Hell Yeah! Always will be
19. Are you happy with your life: Usually
20. If you could change something in your life right now, what would it be: Nothing!

Hope you all enjoyed that!
Natalie

4:11pm: YAY!!!!!
I am so so so excited!

1. I'm goin on a fossil hunting field trip tomorrow!
2. It is Friday tomorrow!
3. I have Modern tonight (hopefully we will get costumes)
4. I may get to go to a Hanson showing and autograph session
5. Hanson's new CD Underneath is coming out in 5 days
6. I am goin to Prom in a week!

That's about it! I am totally Happy right now!!!!!!!

Natalie

7:23pm: HAPPY EASTER!

Hm...So I woke up at about 9:30 to my sisters yelling at me that they were ready to do their little Easter Egg Hunt. Twas great...I guess. Then off to Church at 12:30 which was unbelievably crowded. ANYWAY...then I really wanted to go to the mall and so we drove there only to find out that every store was closed! So we came home and went back out to hit the tennis courts. I love tennis much! It was fun and good exercise so i can be all pretty for my friggin prom dress.

Speaking of I am actually pretty excited now. My mom is going crazy everytime she sees me she is like "You have to make a hair appointment and oh...you wanna get ur nails done?" I think she is more excited than I am. I am really looking forward to being with Casey too because this is something that we have been waiting for since like 5th grade...lol

Natalie

5:46pm: WOO HOO!
HEY EVERYONE!!!!

Today I woke up realizing that I has a car wash that I had to go to! LOL I was an hour late. It was pretty fun tho. I was hoping that my friends would be home to come to get their car washed.

Now I am with my cousins who are all at my house. We are doing the Easter thing...We already did the Easter Egg hunt! My cousin decided that he wanted salt on his turkey and he spilled the whole container onto his plate!!!! It was so funny he created Mt. Salt!!!!

ANYWAY...yestarday was so boring except for the hour or two that I was with Steve at his house trying to put plans together for his basement and walking in the woods. It was fun!

Natalie